Last year I was given a glimpse into identifying too closely with yourself through the making of art. I had not previously been forced to assess the role that making art had in my life or that it was so closely identified with how I think of myself as a person.
I lost my ability to connect with and do my art for months at a time, I have never been as blocked as this and I hope never to become blocked like this again. There were a few days when I threw my arms up and asked myself, ‘what and who are you without the ability to make?’ All my normal jogs and pushes didn’t work, trying out new media, going to museums, hanging out with friends, I did these things, but they did not lead me back into the making!
So, rather than to look at my art as a means to connect to self, I have decided that making is a fun thing I do. One of the many things I like to do. And sometimes, you just have to do those other things.
Buying Dragon, my Thermofax machine, sure did help. That gave some extra luster to wanting to make the plunge and delve deeply into printing enough cloth to make something with.
Rather than create new motifs, I looked to my collection of woodblock stamps for inspiration. These motif have the effect of being even more exciting to me because they are nothing like what I would design otherwise.
This week, I hope to print some semisolids, some cloth that will allow for visual relief, a break from all the colorful clutter and motifs that you see here.
All, while I revel in the fact that my creative drought has broken and I am able to return to doing the creative work that makes me happy. I may yet become blocked again. I may suffer a creative drought, where I wonder who I am without the ability to access my creative center, I hope not. But at least I will know, it does come back! Even if I just have to let it run its course.
I will be teaching:
You Can’t Resist This, where we will use soy wax as a resist along with paint on cotton fabric.
Small Works, Big Impact, where we will make small works while exploring the use of the sewing machine and some pretty nifty techniques.
Journaling with Embroidery, where we will make a Gather your Sew-plies!! purse, so you can sew, wherever you go!
3 thoughts on “A year of returning.”
From what I’ve seen your creative side has been actively engaged.
While not making things, you are certainly creative.
Your whole being, your whole person goes into the doing of life.
The whole creative process has been actively engaged in helping women cope with body image. If that’s not creative I don’t know what is. Our perceptions of our self are oft skewed by so many things. You have lovingly and creatively put your whole self out there for the gift of others.
I am thrilled that your creative drought is over! The places you have been able to access have brought forth remarkable images, that evoke emotion in others.
Now to bust down my blockage, and all will be well in the universe once again.
It is wonderful you share your work and journey with us all.